Heartbreak...

And so it finally happened. The unthinkable. Me and Orika called it off after we saw that there was no way that the parents could agree. Her parents by the way. I was at the disadvantage of being 2.5 years younger, and not havin a job yet, and maybe having the curse of being born on the wrong part of the country. The funny thing is, these issues never ever came up between us in the 3 plus, almost 4 years we were together. And trust me, we were together in all senses. Almost everyday we would see each other, set aside some time in our hectic schedules for at least a tea, if not dinner, and share our daily experiences.

It was a comforting feeling, knowing that someone is waiting for you, knowing that someone loves you as much, respects you as much. Our relationship was more of respect than anything else. We had a rocky start, as it was a jolt to our personal space. But that sorted out mighty fine fast, and there was rarely a bump after that. We did a lot of stuff together, shared many experiences, created history at parts, and lots of happy memories. We were comfortable, as we both had our own personal space and friends, yet we remained together and were there for each other.

All seemed fine, as we finished our studies together, and our parents met up to seek a proposal. However, the age factor dint seem to work out, and so, we had to break it off, as there was no other way...

It would be an understatement to say that it hurts. Heartbreak is one of the worst pains that a man can go thru. The pain that cramps ur heart, not letting it go, is like as if ur heart is rebelling with you, seeking vengeance for afflicting pain on it. things would have been different if we fought and broke off, or anything else that wud make us angry with the other. In my case, we were all fine and happy and ready to go ahead with marriage, when it all came crashing. The fact that she is in another country now, when it all happened, dint help at all...prior to our break-up, we had been far apart for about 6 months...even our goodbyes were rushed, with no chance of a proper farewell...

Well, all's done now. She's there and I'm here. It took me a month for realisation to sink into my world, that i have lost Orika forever. Sucks eh? Just when we think all is going well, something comes out of the blue and turns our world upside down...Thanks to God and my best friend, it dint take long for me to come to terms to it...However, I wish Orika the best of luck, and may she be happy wherever she goes. I just pray she gets married to a guy who will be good to her...

As for myself, though I m healing emotionally, the physical pain of heartbreak is something which i was not born for. its gonna take time to heal, and I know i will bounce back, even higher than I ever would be. I just need to get life back in check, and re-evaluate the way things are gonna be for the next 2 years, as i pursue my Masters...Anything can happen anytime, in any way...But this is to all of you my friends, thanks for being there, especially you bunny-girl...Pray for me...